"Yu Jiang is right. I, Li Er, have always been a scumbag and a mercenary. I lost my family, but I can hate myself and pour it on others at will, and then I won’t blame myself for my shameful behavior at all. But now this self-blame is killing my will. I know that I will bear this crime for a generation, and I will go to pay my debts for the rest of my life. I can understand that Yu Jiang hates me, so I hate myself and I hate the decision I made at the beginning. I hate the rules I made at the beginning, I hate what I experienced at the beginning, I hate the history I witnessed at the beginning, I hate myself just like Yujiang hates me, I hate my voice, I hate my feet, I hate my hands, I hate this dress, I hate my thoughts, I hate my knowledge, and finally I find that these are not things I really hate. What I really hate is myself, and I am in this troubled times. "
Looking at the core of the mother box in his hand, Li Er is deeply immersed in memories.
And when everyone fell into a short silence because of Li Er’s depression, a kite fluttered its wings from the unclosed windowsill and then quickly fell into Li Er’s arms next to the core of the mother box in his hand.
"He … woke up …"
Gently follow the kite’s head and then touch the tail. This is what Li Er said with a lot on his mind.
I don’t know what’s on Li Er’s mind at this time, and I don’t know what he’s thinking about and what he’s afraid of. All three of them are keenly aware that when the kite flew to the house, the person who was regarded by Zhao Xuan turned a little white as soon as he suddenly interrupted, but after this brief white, he quickly returned to normal.
No one broke this window paper, and no one jumped out to directly question Li Er. In addition to Su Qingguang, Huixian and Zeng Haoxuan both chose to keep themselves relatively silent and quiet, and then handed the stage to Li Er at this time.
"I’ll go and see …"
But before Li Er finished his words, Su Qingguang finally left the hut alone.
The eye war, that is, Yujiang chose this juncture to leave the valley of secrets. How does Su Qingguang think about it? If he goes to see him, he will always recognize Yujiang’s decision at the moment. That is quite stupid. But is there any way for him to say that Yujiang’s identity is still extremely embarrassing for Yujiang at this time? Others are not guardians of Yujiang’s unified meaning. It can be said that he and Yujiang have no identity for Yujiang. What is his identity? Throughout the past years and experiences, in Yujiang’s eyes, his identity can be regarded as a suitor who pursues Zhao Xuan, and he can be regarded as a rival in Yubeitang’s love. If such a person is put in Yujiang’s eyes, there is really no way to please the other person’s heart.
And now times have changed …
Because of Lu Feng’s will, Li Er was forced to lead an army to attack the Valley of the Secret. Even after the contact, Su Qingguang gradually learned from Huixian’s mouth. At the end of this matter, he learned Li Er’s initial intention, but it was indeed because of his Li Er attack that the incident was forced to happen. Zhao Xuan and Yu Beitang were both killed, leaving Yu Jiang as an underage child. In his eyes, Li Er was doing something such as compensating his beloved for his death, which was absolutely related to Li Er, and no one would want to tear it off.
At the same time, Su Qingguang also knows that Yu Jiang’s eyes belong to the same kind of creature as Li Er, even though he is very clear that Yu Jiang has heard of him in the past few days, but it is still quite unfamiliar if he hears about it, but he clearly knows that it is white to white, and if he is allowed to come up with a set of ways to make Yu Jiang change his mind for himself for a while, he really can’t think of it now.
As for Yu Jiang, Su Qingguang’s strategy is to boil frogs in warm water, and slowly and slowly until Yu Jiang changes himself.
Su Qingguang is more confident about this strategy he has drawn up. He firmly believes that if he insists on it all the time, he will be able to tackle the problem for a kid like Yu Jiang, but the only thing in his heart is this time.
But these are another story. After all, Su Qingguang’s heart is still Yu Jiang’s physical condition at this time. You know, when he joined hands with Huixian and Zeng Haoxuan, he had to temporarily make the hair crazy. This shows that the strength of the shadow leopard is really no joke. At first, Yu Jiang was alone in the face of the shadow leopard. It is not difficult to imagine how great the pressure and threat Yu Jiang had to face at that time.
Now Yujiang has been lying in bed for less than half a month, so he has to wake up to reason. Su Qingguang has to make sure that he has to catch up with the other party and appear in front of Yujiang when he just wakes up.
Because this promise was his promise to Zhao Xuan, he didn’t let himself promise this incident. He didn’t let himself down. Zhao Xuan believed that Yu Jiang would put on a bad face in front of him. I believed that Su Qingguang would laugh it off because Yu Jiang was Zhao Xuaner and the other party was an orphan of his beloved.
……
Knock, knock, knock …
A gentle knock on the door came slowly from outside.
A splitting headache is like being severely beaten by a disorderly stick. Generally, even a slight shaking of the head and cervical vertebra will be followed by a pain. Although it is not that kind of terrible pain, it also makes people feel extremely tormented and tortured. However, Yu Jiangshang has not fully woken up from a long sleep, and the series of knocking at the door has entered his brain along his ear canal.
"Who …"
Although his voice seemed to be on fire at this time, he still held on to his will and tilted his head so that he could stare at the wooden door not far away and then shouted at the top of his voice.
But maybe it’s because Yujiang has been lying in bed for too long, or because he hasn’t replenished water for too long. When he tries his best to shout, the sound he can make is as small as a mosquito’s call, and a series of knocking at the door comes again as soon as he shouts outside.
"Come on, don’t knock me, just go in …"
In a trance, Yu Jiang seemed to hear two men talking outside his house.
"The duke general once ordered that no one is allowed to visit you without his instructions. Now you not only have no instructions from the general, but also have to break into this … this … isn’t it difficult for us kids to do this?"
This is a crying sound, and I can hear from this tone that this person’s position and status should not be too high. After all, too high a position will not be arranged to guard the door.
"Don’t give Hou any more nonsense here. Knock the door on Hou, or you don’t blame Hou for being rude to you. You should know that Hou, but even Li Er dares to beat people. Hou advises you that you’d better be smart. Otherwise, when you really wear Hou patience out, you will have a good fruit."
Maybe it’s because the person lying in the house is Yujiang. Maybe it’s because Li Er told him Yujiang had woken up. It’s better that Su Qingguang blew his temper on the spot when he learned that he couldn’t visit Yujiang without Li Er’s edict.
"Don’t Sue the duke. We are just a soldier. We really can’t bear your pressure. I want you to take the letter from the general. Don’t say the door. Even if I give you the key, I will hand it in immediately without saying anything. But if you don’t give me the letter now, once the general knows about it, it will definitely punish me … I hope the duke will …"
However, before the big-headed soldier finished speaking, he heard a sound together with Su Qingguang, a very weak but true sound.
"Knock … the door … and let … him … enter … and come …"
Chapter five hundred and seventy-nine Anguo
No one knows what Su Qingguang said to Yu Jiangdu that afternoon.
No one knows what Yujiang said in front of Su Qingguang that afternoon.
No one knows whether Su Qingguang relayed what Li Er said to Yu Jiang intact.
And the only thing that history can know from it and the only thing that can be deeply remembered by this past is Su Qingguang’s preoccupation when he left the hut alone, such as Yujiang’s locking the house again alone, and Li Er’s quietly putting the mother box that he had calibrated in front of the house.
Yes, these three men are silent …
Yes, these three men understand …
Yes, these three men have not been told the truth.
Whether it’s Li Er, Su Qingguang or Yu Jiang, the three people really have very similar temper and disposition, otherwise fate would not try its best to arrange for these three people to meet in such a state.
As far as Li Er is concerned, this series of tragic events was hand-picked by Zhao Xuan, and the successor was awakened by Tai Ji Tian Shu. The defender was chosen by fate. At this stage, after Zhao Xuan, another poor man was cursed by knowledge. For what happened in front of him, he was really hiding too much in his heart. He wanted to express his remorse, but he wanted to talk about his guilt.
This confession stems from Li Er’s own understanding of Zhao Xuan’s choice, from his own sympathy for Yu Beitang’s choice and from his own sympathy for Yu Jiang’s choice.
This guilt stems from the remorse of those souls who died because of themselves at the boundary gate, from the guilt of those souls who died because of themselves in Cangzhou, and from the punishment difficulties that Li Er never dared to forget when he faced the ruin of the day because of his careless choice.
It can be said that since Li Er accepted this wisdom from Tai Ji Tian Shu, since he accepted the pressure from Zhao Xuan, since he accepted this guilt from Yu Jiang, since he admitted his identity at this time, since he clearly understood the responsibility he needed to face in the future, his life has changed dramatically.
Because from the moment when Tian Yi broke out, Li Er was no longer the former Duke of Benbei. Since then, he has had one identity, that is, the head of the border gate is a relative of Zhao Xuan and a native of Tian Shu who is defending the space plane.
This is Li Er’s choice, but also the future that this vast sky has given to all the people in the world.
It was fate that chose Li Er, it was hope that chose him, and it was the future that chose him, not that he made a corresponding choice.
Since Li Er chose to voluntarily put his hands on the machine, Tian Shu, since he voluntarily chose his own flesh and blood to open this passage between heaven and earth, he has recognized himself at the same time and all the hardships he needs to face in the future.
And no one forced Li Er to do all this, and no one wanted to hold him by his arm. It can be said that all the changes that happened at that time were his own heart and what he wanted to do was his own mind.
The only way to make a reasonable explanation for this is because at that moment, Li Er suddenly understood Zhao Xuanxin, and he suddenly understood that he had lived so humble, so pitiful and so knowledgeable.
For Su Qingguang, Li Er is also aware of the anger in this person’s heart. He knows very well how fierce the anger in the chest that was suppressed by Su Qingguang at this time is.
Because Li Er knew that if he put himself in Su Qingguang’s perspective, if he was allowed to look at the end of the day from Su Qingguang’s perspective, if he was allowed to face the choice Su Qingguang faced, if he was allowed to watch his lifelong lover die like this, if he was told that the murderer who killed his lover would believe in his own eyes, he would certainly make himself behave like Su Qingguang at that time, and maybe he would do it one hundred times more than Su Qingguang.
You know, when a person encounters such a big external stimulus, even the most ordinary people will get angry, not to mention Su Qingguang, who grew up with a golden spoon.
After all, there is one thing that Li Er has tried to change, and that is Su Qingguang’s identity.